I quit drinking because it wasn’t serving me anymore. I quit because it was ruining my life. I quit because it probably ruined an important relationship. I quit because life feels so much better when I am sober.
I choose drinking over waking up early in the morning. I choose drinking over exercise. I choose drinking over my health. I just chose drinking. Why? I have asked myself this question over and over. Why does alcohol have such a hold on me and why did I choose it over my relationship?
Now, I wake up early every morning. I exercise every day. I meditate almost every day. I go to bed early. I feel amazing in the morning because I can actually sleep through the whole night.
When we have a hard day and we tell ourselves that we need a drink because it will make everything better. Well guess what, it doesn’t. I know this because I chose something completely different and it is a much better solution. I don’t have anxiety and depression anymore. I can handle issues with grace and composure. I can see the light in situations instead of just the darkness. I choose to now see the glass half full instead of half empty. My outlook on life is so much better.
When I was drinking I would choose to waste my time on Facebook and only listen to news podcasts or read articles about current events. It was so depressing. The day I decided to quit drinking I also quit Facebook. I figured, why not cut out all distractions and deal with my feelings. And guess what? Feelings are kind of awesome. I was so scared of my feelings and now I am in love with each and every one of them. We spend so much of our life running from our feelings by drinking, spending way too much time on social media, and pretty much figuring out anyway we can to just check out of life.
When I started to choose to be present in my life I realized that life was really short. An ex of mine once put a “life” clock on her computer and it drove me crazy. I hated looking at it because it just gave me anxiety. I was 28 years old at the time and didn’t want to think about the end of my life. At 45 I feel really differently about the time I have remaining on this earth. I still don’t want to see a “life” clock but I do want to think about how I spend my remaining days on this earth. Cheers to sobriety and being present.